my life....

When I fall in love I fall hard. It takes me alot of courage to tell a guy I love them cause I have this thing where I wait for guys to tell me they love me. Stupid right??!!I am inlove right now with a guy named (...... I cant say his name just in case) now I have been having theses really bad stomic pains so he things and I think im pregnet now this is bad because I am really young and hes trying to push me to give him an answer if I am or not and so I keep taking pregnecy test and I always take them too soon. Hes getting all mad at me when if I could know I would tell him but I cant cause I dont know. Its like he doesnt care about my feelings I would be the one who would have to walk around everyday with a big belly in front of a whole bunch of people and I would be the one to give birth and go threw the hormonal changes and to have to deal with all of the pains and I know he will be here for me but im afraid and its hard for me to say that because im always trying to be strong but im scared out of my mind I dont know what im going to do and most of all I just wouldnt want to be a crappy mom.